Who out there hasn’t sipped from the cup of deprivation?
Says who that our needs in life are contained between food,
water and air?
With the lack of faith and vision, one is nothing but a lost
soul without any purpose for existence. Bouncing like a ball between four walls,
getting smacked with two rackets in a game of squash. Bouncing back every time
to meet the inevitable ending of hitting just another wall yet again.
Have you ever been deprived from the one you love?
Her voice to wake you up in the early hours to tell you good
morning, and suddenly that sun rises brighter than ever on your world. It
echoes through the blue sky with peace. You walk down the street, you pass
hundreds of people, suddenly; it seems as if every man and woman are smiling at you, spelling the words “Good
Morning my love” through her lips, as if she secretly conspired with every
person in this world, making sure that the beautiful words are passed to you in
every possible way.
Or the “sweet dream my baby”, that puts you to sleep
like a child. Free from all trouble, the way your mother use to put you to sleep
in your earlier days. Those days that you can merely remember as you age,
witnessing that your hair shades are adopting grayness , you deny it at first,
but later you smile knowing that history is re-writing itself, only now it
sounds like exquisite music to your soul. You look out the window in search
between the moon and the stars for one single shooting star to make a wish for
that you love; you find nothing but silence in the black curtain above you. But
you smile, knowing that you have all the peace you desired with that good night
she whispered into your ears.
But then a day of silence arrive, you look around and you
can’t find her. Water and food does not fill the void area in your soul. The
air seems to flow around you in silence, like an assassin that is awaiting the
right moment to betray your chest.
You turn to music searching for her between the lyrics of a song,
you look for her words in the writings of poets, you search for her name in the
silenced sands of the beach, you search for the strength of her soul in the
pride of mountains or you look for her innocent smile on the face of a child.
But you fail to find her … all you find is silence and darkness. You turn to
God and ask him, “oh Lord send me a sign, a dream, a mercy so that I can
have my heart beat the way it once did”.
Deprived with no refuge but patience …
You tell yourself time will fix what has been broken in you.
You run around like an idiot collecting the little pieces of your heart. You
fail a thousand times …. Then you acknowledge that your efforts are as useless
as building a sand castle in the middle of the ocean.
You wake up one morning, and the Lord has answered your
prayers, as you find your lost soul in a journey that seems like a thousand
years' struggle.
You never forget how deprived you were, you rather embrace
it. You know that her love is more important to your soul than water is
imperative to the body. You tell yourself never to forget the feeling of
deprivation you once held, for it is the missing part to the equation of love.
You understand that without sorrow you will never appreciate
happiness. Without hunger you will never understand the full gratitude of food.
Without the heat of the day time you will never read the magic in the cool
breeze of the peaceful evening.
You wake up once again … Only this time you carry a smile that
can never be compared to any that you have ever held before. Why … because she spoke to you with two simple
words “Good morning”.
Newcastle - 13/8/2012
"The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain" - Khalil Gibran
ReplyDeleteBeautiful piece my friend
Thank you Lama, glad you liked it :)
DeleteWhat a random blog post to come across this morning !!
ReplyDeleteIf you could write such beautiful words for the love of a women you haven't met yet , I truly wonder what you would write the day you decide to right for "a daughter ".
Thank you for the good read .
Good night other side of world
Thank you for your very kind words :)
DeleteYou won't probably see this untill next year :p. But its the only place where i can say that i was so happy to see you that day on TV! Seriously ive been following you for ages *since your user name was Arabian dreamer*:p
ReplyDeleteI loved and i still love all what you writes and posts on twitter i even check your blog every once and a while hoping that maybe you would post something new..
Well.. I really want to meet you one day and get the chance to actually talk to you .. Happy new year o inshalah tkon sana 7ilwa 3alek yarb.: